Pain and Suffering(内心遥白)Kool Stuff
by hxchomerjay51Location: Here, There, and Everywhere
Sex : M

Pain and Suffering2/8/2002
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I'm really feeling crappy right now.
I'm in so much pain.
I'm hurt really badly.
I just don't understand.
Am I worth anything?
What am I worth?
I thought I was special.
Maybe I'm overreacting or misunderstanding.
I sure hope I am.
I sure hope that I'm still wanted by the one who said she always would love me.
I know she's probably not gonna like this.
And I tried not to come here and write n e thing about it.
But I must.
Why does something that makes her so happy make me so sad?
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I think it's cos I don't know what's going on.
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I dunno.
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I'm confused.
I kinda hope she doesn't read this.
But I also kinda hope she does, so she can take all this confusion away.
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so she can take all this pain away.
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so that I won't be sad anymore.
So that I will realize how stupid I'm being right now to think something like this.
I'm such an insecure prick.
I dunno.
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I just don't know what to do n e more.
I'm tired of letting everyone know what I'm feeling.
I know I said I wouldn't write in here n e more.
But I dunno.
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maybe this will be the last?
We'll see.
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Miranda, please come save me from all this.
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